Teen Review by Molly
By the Time You Read This, I’ll Be Dead
By Julie Anne Peters
Type of book: realistic fiction
Rating: 4.5 stars
After several failed suicide attempts, 15-year-old Daelyn Rice is left unable to speak- as well as without the excess weight for which she has been bullied her entire life. But she is determined to get her death right this time, so she joins a website called through-the-light.com where she opens up on years of tormenting that have left her completely hopeless in her outlook on life. Daelyn provides an eye-opening perspective on not only the long-term psychological effects of bullying but, perhaps most importantly, the reasons why someone would be pushed so far to the edge that even when provided with a number of reasons to go on living, she would still rather be dead.
At times I felt like there might be some sort of salvation for her- like when she meets a boy named Santana who lives across the street from her school and tries determinedly to befriend her. Santana, who has Hodgkin’s lymphoma, is surprisingly bright and interesting for a boy who may not live another year, and represents an interesting contrast to Daelyn, who would do anything to be in his position. But certain characteristics of Daelyn, as well as flashbacks of the numerous times she was picked on by mean, heartless people, will make even the most ardent of readers wonder if there is any hope for her at all. After years of bullying and therapy and changing schools without anyone ever being nice to her, she doesn’t think this time will be any different. It appears she wants to be miserable, and truly, honestly, wants to be dead.
By The Time You Read This I’ll Be Dead packs a lot of punch in its spare 198 pages. The characters (except for Daelyn’s clueless parents) are interesting, well developed, and easily relatable despite the not-so-common circumstances, and the subject is something that will resonate with anyone with a little empathy. I would highly recommend it to anyone looking for a short, intense read that will make you think for a long time after you’ve finished.